you're my everything;

Monday, March 13, 2006

Peeps. I have moved. To a more cheerful place. Wheeee.

http://takealittlepieceofmyheart.blogspot.com/

Seeya there.

`Living on a dream.

5:16 PM

Monday, January 09, 2006

All i ever wanted.
Was to be that butterfly.
That has no ears.
But one heart.
And feel its surroundings.
Fluttering around, in and out of your world.
Only trying to beautify it.

Bless my efforts.
And your world.
With everlasting beauty.
After the butterfly has expired.
And lasted its three sunrises.
And sunsets.

"When love demands, there is no trust.
When there is no trust, there is no love"
I guess the answer to it all...would be to trust your love.
And dreams.

To the doubter of his dreams but companion of mine: Forsake your hopes and you risk losing your soul. Betray your dreams and derail your destiny. It lies all in your hands.

To the keeper of innocence and ghost of my hopes: May all your potential be fulfilled and tomorrow only be brighter.

To the found and lost friend: Be who you were meant to be, and allow me to be the past meddler and present observer, rescue buoy.

To the spark of forsaken yesterdays: Hopeful that your spirit lives on and burn the everlasting flame.

To a partner of the rooted days: Step back onto the path you were meant to be on and reunite with your calling.

To the desire lying in the waiting: Be satisfied.

To all that paint of this life: This canvas lies before you. Tainted, spoilt, beautified, glorified, and entwined forever with the painter.

I once had a pet bird.
It flew into my life.
I enclosed it within my cage.
Only to open the gates to grant it freedom.
It stayed within this soul.
The skies await.
Freedom lurks.
But love reigned supreme.
And called home victorious.

Le papillion.
The butterfly.
So beautiful yet shortlived.

Carrying all its hopes on those painted wings,
towards eternity and all that lies within and ahead.
In its fantasies and dreams.
Flying an everlasting hope.
Hope.

`Living on a dream.

11:05 PM

A new skin...to seal my soul.
And close with an last entry.
Everything that mattered.
And was signified.
Among the prose.
And poems.
Awaiting inspiration for that last entry...

`Living on a dream.

11:02 PM

Sunday, January 08, 2006

Rain has set in.
In this season of afresh beginnings.
Beginnings.
Signals end.
Endings signals of begginings?

Caught in the rain.
Gosh.
A good indicator of the state of mind by seeing my reaction to those drops of heavenly dew.
As many would know...i love the rain.
When i used to be caught in the rain, probably i would walk in it.
And be engulfed by a peaceful bliss.
Haha...remember many of those memories.
People who don't know me would b shocked.
First few weeks in ac...got caught in rain.
WHile people were like running...to the container classrooms,
i was like strolling...holding out my hands for it.
Haha, people were like staring at me.
Two rabbits...jumped into the pack of wolves.
one became a wolf.
The other changed them.
I guess...i converted to lovers of the fast paced and less feeling.
Where i dash across the rain.
Maybe its time to rediscover my touch.
And love for feelings.
Ans sensitivity.
And put down certain droughts in my life.
Hee.

Love the rain.
and the sound of everything coming to a still.
Where memories and feelings seem starkingly clear.
And you can hold yourself tight.
And embrace your soul.

`Living on a dream.

3:08 PM

Saturday, January 07, 2006

Woohoo. A good break today from a crazy place called school.
Hee. Watched this movie called golden chicken. A hk production.
Watched more vcds..then tried watchin godfather..bt too long for today..mayb tml.
So many good shows await me...the butterfly...the return...the last emperor...love me if u dare..A La folie pas du tout..all arty farty shows..haha..n i love them!!!..haha..bt schl will keep me away frm my shows. Boohoohoo. And this great book awaits me after the louis cha extravagnaza....be with me..this jap book tht gt made into a movie.

Fantasy. Just a picture in our mind.
That never seem to fade.
Only to become more beautiful.
But when you taste it,
would it be that good.
Or fall flat on you?
The point is...you wont.
It's a fantasy...remeber?
Sticking to reality.
And rediscovering my steps.
Catching the chords of that piece of music.

`Living on a dream.

9:37 PM

Friday, January 06, 2006

Long long week.
The four days seemed like eternity like hw many of my classmates were saying.
The body fatigue level seem like 3 months old.
Amazing?
Not really. That would b a normal situation if you want a sniff at 4 As or similar grades.
Yes.
So if you want the fruits...don't complain about the labour.

Taking a good break this weekend.
Just enjoy simple non activity and recharge those cells before chioning all da way again!!!
Woohoo.

Distractions.
Of the soul.
Wandering across your landscape.
Ghosts haunting too.
Forming a duet of dangers.
Focus on the goal ahead.
And clear the cobwebs lingering in the closet.
Only keeping the pictures.

`Living on a dream.

8:35 PM

Thursday, January 05, 2006

I am becoming weak.
Very weak.
To prove my point, a mere 30 mins pt session shagged me out. It totally shagged me out. Gosh! And i was having this illusion that one year of non activity plus 3 mths of holidaying while having tennis sessions as the only exercise wld keep me fit. Fat fat hope. Aha. Sad change. It used to be that i was the one laughing at ppl like the me now. Easily succumbing to pt sessions. I used to shout at my cadets for being unable to tolerate my one hr pt sessions. Now this. Retribution. For the screaming at my former cadets and for being lazy. Ahah.

Today was fine i guess. Like how all the school days are becoming a orchestra of will. The orchestra of will. That includes tomorrow and the days to come. Hee. And sean lost his wallet today. No...to be exact...he found it back..only to find the money gone. Seventy plus bucks. Gosh. Ac is rich? U bet. Ac has creeps who r stupid poor losers? U bet too. As i was telling sean. The person who stole the money...lost/ U lost ur money. He lost his integrity. Cliche as it may sound. But true.

Sometimes we don't really appreciate what we have. What our life gives us. A illustration: My class got a new chinese teacher. So in the process of guessing who was it and whether we cld thus skip lessons, we found out it was a horrid teacher, the black widow. We screamt n cursed. Lol. When we found out that no...its another teacher, we were relieved. But after a while...we were missing our old teacher. And hoping we cld have him back as he allowed us to skip lessons n have picnics in class. haha. But hey...it cld have been worse. As we found out. The point is...we pick from a basket of fruits. We may not always get the pick of the crop. But just appreciate what we got. Sure...we got some good stuff before. But you wld never be satisfied if u held on to what u best savoured be4 right? Yup. Thats the POINT. Dun be a loser who cant accomodate to life. U r a winner. ****end of message****

Woohoo. Hyped up to be a decent student and do my work and revisions. Of course..light ones...so as to not face a meltdown. But this year wld b a better year. Academically wise. And hopefully soulfully wise. But last year was a rewarding year it turned out to be. If only u bothered to turn back and reflect. And savour those moment that made it all worthwhile.

Before the sunrise....lies the darkest night.
Interpret it in your own way.
Darkness is only there to contrast with light.
And make it only more beautiful.

`Living on a dream.

7:59 PM

Wednesday, January 04, 2006

The rain is falling.
Full of memories.
Make me feel like the day we parted...

Bitter bliss.
Tired courage.
Determined struggle.

Result of a satisfied soul. Abandoned in a system of weariness. Passion of a love brimmed vision. Lost in a pale reflection of that image.

Tired days ahead. Just the work kills. Not to mention the strain. New chem teacher. Reminds me of mr chan. haha. i guess...if i had mr chan for chem in sec schl..it wld have been like this mr cheong. Lol. Totally similar style. Good or bad? haha. U judge. heee.

Had lunch with ozt. Learned that my choice was lousy. Bought worng size. Gosh. A thought lost. Hmm. Rainy day. Gloomy mood. But ultimately...the resonation of hopes n dreams seem to overide all those negativity.

Hope for you too. Wish you see the light. And walk on. Armed with a stronger faith. In this crazy world. Protect your soul. Before its gone. Believe in a dream. And hold on to it. Maybe...just maybe...it will lead you on, forever.

Plentiful joy. In the season of droughts.
Abundant satisfaction. Amid the lost of yield.
Lost.
And found?

`Living on a dream.

8:40 PM